Shalia's Diary #3 Page 18

  I screamed his name. His dark visage filled my stare, a calculating smile spreading over it. He held me still easily though I fought with everything I had to get free. Brutal climax galloped towards me, one that I knew would rip me apart. I couldn’t get loose. I couldn’t fucking move.

  My jaw yawned wide open. I didn’t even have breath to shriek as the orgasm bore down on me.

  “Werpac.”

  Abruptly, the torture device on my clit went back down to that discreet little hum. The violent climax that had threatened me backed off, leaving me trembling and sobbing with a mixture of disappointment and relief.

  “Lovely, little pet. I’m glad you like the present. Shall we go?”

  Oses stood, setting me on my feet. My knees tried to buckle, but the Nobek was right there, keeping me upright. I couldn’t have stood on my own.

  I wanted to say so many things, most of them pretty foul, but all I could gasp was a one word question. “Go?”

  “To my quarters. You’ll remember I told you that was where I wanted us to enjoy ourselves.” He prodded me towards the door.

  Somehow my legs moved forward, though they were in no shape to support my weight. Oses was going to make me walk the ship’s corridors to his quarters? Like this?

  “Oses,” I said, trying to balk before I was seen in public. “Oses, the thing you put on me ... it’s still vibrating.”

  “Yes, I know. I don’t want your anticipation of what we’re going to share to be interrupted.”

  “But, but...” I was having trouble thinking with that damned thing humming along against my now sensitized clit. “Oses, turn it off.”

  “No pet, I don’t want to do that. However, if you don’t behave like a good little girl, I might turn it up full again.”

  My door opened and he swept me into the corridor. I stared up at him, barely breathing in the wake of his threat.

  Oses still grinned at me, looking as pleased as punch with my predicament. Downright jolly, in fact. However, there was a hard light in his eyes that said he wasn’t kidding around. The bastard had every intention of making me scream with orgasm in the middle of the transport’s halls if I didn’t go along with what he wanted.

  He gave me a slow, wicked wink. “I told you, Shalia. I’m a very controlling man. I play by my own set of rules, rules you’d better learn quickly.”

  I was so screwed even before the fucking had started.

  Keeping me in the curl of his arm, Nobek Oses ushered me down too many corridors to count. I had planned to take note of how to get to his quarters on my own, but with that damned thing vibrating my clit I couldn’t think straight. Walking shifted the stimulator minutely, but it was enough to intensify the sensations. Curls of knee-knocking pleasure continuously swam up my crotch and into my gut. Eager juices ran down the insides of my legs. I wouldn’t be surprised if I left drip marks on the springy floors as Oses guided me to his room.

  I’m sure we passed others on our way. I can’t imagine the sight I must have been. Did I moan all the way? Was I hunched over as arousal coiled tight in my belly? What was the look on my face? I have no idea. All I knew was how fucking horny that contraption made me and how trapped yet secure I felt in Oses’ grip. I didn’t dare defy the huge Nobek, not with his warning still ringing in my ears. I wasn’t about to test his threat that he would increase the level of vibration and make me climax where I stood.

  I’m quite sure he took me on the longest route possible to get to his quarters. That insane walk went on forever, and by the time we were nearly there, I was dying to come. I actually wondered how awful it would be to stop right there in the corridor and refuse to take another step. I almost didn’t care I’d be forcing Oses to make good on his promise to make me orgasm in front of whoever might be around. I hurt bad.

  At last the torment of our journey ended. A door opened in front of my face, and Oses brought me inside his quarters.

  The vibrations switched off, leaving me panting just inside the room. The door behind me closed. Oses released me, and my hands moved towards my poor, desperate crotch.

  The steely tone of my companion froze me. “You will not touch yourself, Shalia. If you do, I will bind your hands and refuse to let you climax during our time together.”

  I stared up at him, my eyes wide enough to tempt them to fall out of my head. Oses stood over me, an implacable, huge creature of destruction. Well, I felt destroyed at any rate. His expression wasn’t cruel, merely set. Determined. He meant what he said.

  My fingers curled into my palms with the effort it took to not rub myself and end my frustration. It nearly killed me to not do it.

  “Good pet.” He gave me a smile that warmed me to my toes despite the agony he’d put me through. “Come over here. We’re going to discuss our expectations of this meeting.”

  He walked over to a decent-sized sleeping mat and sat on its edge. It wasn’t as big as mine. In fact, nothing about Oses’ quarters equaled my suite. It slowly registered that while my living quarters consisted of a sitting room, bedroom, and bath facility, all Oses had was the one room with a bathroom half the size of mine.

  The flooring was padded and soft. It was a solid surface, but it had the give of a carpeted floor, much like the floors in my room. Oses had a table and chair in one corner. There the flat disk of the typical Kalquorian computer sat, without the vid up to indicate it was on.

  There was a piece of furniture I couldn’t quite figure out. It sort of looked like a pommel horse without the handles. The horizontal beam was heavily padded with what appeared to be black leather. The A-framed supporting beams had metal latches midway down and at the bottom of their lengths. The room was way too small for Oses to be performing gymnastics with that hulking body of his, so the horse’s function was a mystery.

  He had a few vid plaques hanging on the walls, but I couldn’t read any of the hieroglyphic writing on them. There was also a still picture of three Kalquorian men and a woman. I’d not seen a Kalquorian female before, so I couldn’t help but stare in curiosity as I drew closer to Oses. She wasn’t as big as the men, but she had more muscles showing in her flowing sleeveless dress than any woman I’d ever seen. The chick had biceps our steroid-fed ground troops would have died for. I sure wouldn’t have wanted her to take a swing at me.

  “A still of my parents, taken many years ago,” Oses said, noting my interest. “You may take off your clothes and kneel before me, pet.”

  I wondered if the Nobek’s mother and fathers were still alive. I didn’t want to ask Oses, since it might kill the mood. I was so fixated on that detail that it took me several seconds to register all that he had said.

  I blinked at the big weapons commander. Had he just ordered me to strip and kneel?

  He looked at me with great patience. “I do not like to repeat myself, Shalia. It is grounds for punishment. Do you want to find out about discipline so early in our dealings with each other?”

  Whoa, okay, now I got why Oses had stressed how commanding he was before. This Nobek didn’t play around. From the look on his face, sex was serious business for him. I wasn’t sure of what I’d gotten myself into or if I should keep going. However, I was still pretty needy after that crazy walk from my quarters to his. Just looking at Oses made my knees wobble. If for no other reason, I needed to kneel to keep from falling on my ass.

  Trembling all over, I pulled my shirt and skirt off, kicking my shoes to the side as I went. Oses bent and picked up the things I discarded, folding them neatly and laying them on the nearby desk.

  My bra came off. I hesitated, wondering if I was supposed to take off the vibrating pad strapped to my clit as well.

  “You may leave that on,” Oses told me. He held out his hand. “I will give you support as you go to your knees.”

  The tart retort “Oh, such a gentleman,” rose to my lips. It didn’t get out of my mouth, however, not after checking the Nobek’s firm expression. Once in a great while I show I have some sense. I swallowed my cleverness
and knelt down between his booted feet.

  “Lace your fingers behind your neck, so that your breasts are lifted. Widen your legs out so your pussy is displayed.” Oses waited for me to obey.

  I really didn’t know what to think of all this. Who was this man to tell me to show myself to him like some enslaved slut? We barely knew each other. Yet I found myself doing as told, my body surrendering to his wants even as my head filled with resistance.

  Oses chuckled. “You should see the look on your face, Shalia. It is obvious you are thinking heavily about defiance. You may have thought you’d been with controlling men before, but I think you will find I am in a league of my own. Legs wider, pet. I want that lovely pussy wide open.”

  I couldn’t help the sound of protest that slipped from my throat. Yet I spread my thighs as far apart as I was able. He was right about one thing; Oses brought domineering to levels I’d not even guessed at.

  “Very nice, though I could have done without the whining. You have much to learn if you are to be pleasured by me, Shalia.” The Nobek’s eyes narrowed as he spoke.

  I couldn’t take anymore. “You are taking this lord and master thing to the extreme,” I said.

  “You like it. No, don’t try to deny it or I will punish you and send you back to your quarters with no climax. Not only do you automatically move to obey my orders, but your breathing is fast, you’re flushed, your nipples are engorged, and your pussy is dripping on my floor.” Oses caught my chin in his hand. “You enjoy being mastered, pet. You have met a most exacting ‘lord’, as you put it, and your entire being is thrilled at the prospect.”

  I didn’t want to admit he was right. I’m a survivor, damn it. I’m strong, not some weak girl who looks to men to take care of her.

  I asked, “If I want it so bad, then why is my brain questioning all this?”

  “A very good question,” Oses agreed. “One I am happy you asked. It is the mind’s natural function to question things, even things in which the facts all point to one conclusion. In those instances, it is only fear that brings about such noise. Your head resists doing what the rest of you knows is right for you because you are afraid.”

  Well, he had the afraid part of the equation right anyway. “How do you know what’s right for me?” I asked.

  “I don’t know everything about you, but some of it my instincts tell me,” the Nobek said. “I’d like to find out the rest. That’s why we’re going to have a little chat before we go too far with this. We need to establish the ground rules for our interactions.”

  That was a plan I could get behind. If I was going to put myself in the big hands of this demanding Nobek, I definitely wanted rules.

  “Okay,” I said. “Let’s do that.”

  He nodded and released my chin. “Very good. As you have no doubt figured out, I am in absolute control here. In my quarters, when we are enjoying intimacies, my word is your law.”

  I raised an eyebrow. Oses grinned.

  “Only in here, Shalia. And only because you allow it.”

  I considered. So far, that sounded okay. “Sure,” I said.

  “Yes, Master,” he prompted me. “We will do this right from the start, pet.”

  “Yes, Master.” Saying the words made me feel smaller than ever next to the behemoth, but at the same time I felt secure under his power. I liked it.

  “When you come in here to spend time with me, you will immediately take your clothes off. Then you will kneel as you are doing now and wait for my instructions.” Oses reached down and stroked my hair, as if to take the sting of his expectations out of the equation. “Your eyes will be downcast unless I want you to look at me, as I do now. It may be I choose to let you kneel for some time before I acknowledge your presence, but I will be very aware of you, pet. I will note every breath you take, every small shift of your body, every tremble you experience.”

  I believed him. I had the feeling Oses missed nothing.

  He kept on. “When I give you a command, you will not question it. You will simply do as you’re told. If it is something that upsets you more than mere nervousness, you will say, ‘Will my master allow me to speak?’ That way I will know you are more uncomfortable than usual and we can discuss what is upsetting you.”

  That sounded good to me. I felt even more secure, knowing Oses would listen to me if things got too weird.

  His instructions continued. “If you are in an absolute panic about anything we are doing and you need it to stop immediately, you will say sholt. You are already familiar with that, so we will keep it as your signal that a halt must be called to our play. Do you understand my instructions so far, Shalia?”

  “Yes, Master,” I answered.

  “Excellent. Repeat them back to me.”

  I recited the whole business. He looked pleased.

  “One final expectation that I have for you, pet. This is the most important one, so if you cannot perform it, we will stop right here. You will be absolutely honest with me at all times. I will tolerate no lies or half-truths.” His purple eyes narrowed. “Kalquorian sex play can be more extreme than Earther, from what I’ve heard. It could affect you emotionally as well as physically. For that reason, I must know exactly where your head is at all times. Can you do that, Shalia?”

  I thought about it. It sounded easy enough on the surface. I do see myself as a pretty honest person. However, I also realized something else: I’d kept a lot of secrets in the past. I’d honed that ability to get along under Earth’s tyranny. By now, it might have become more instinct than something under conscious control.

  Thinking about that, I had a feeling what Oses wanted from me wasn’t going to be all that simple to give.

  “Will my master allow me to speak?” I asked, since I thought my answer was going to venture way beyond a simple yes or no.

  “Yes, pet. What concerns you?”

  I swallowed, my heart throbbing at the considerate tone in his voice. How could a man be so demanding and compassionate at the same time? Oses had this thing down to an art.

  “You said you need to know what’s in my head all the time. Is that really necessary?”

  He nodded slowly, his gaze boring into mine. “Absolutely. I cannot care for you properly if you hold back information, especially anything that interferes with you being completely in the moment with me.”

  I took a deep breath. He wanted honesty, so he was going to get it. “I don’t know if I can do that. You see, what I have in my head is not always very nice. It’s become instinct to keep some things to myself.”

  Oses separated a length of my hair from the rest, gently twirling it around his finger. “Such is the effect of a repressive government that strives to mold all facets of one’s morality. It’s not surprising that the soul would battle to find a way to preserve even a small piece of itself in such a fashion.” He smiled but managed to look sad at the same time. “We will make a compromise, Shalia, because you don’t know me well enough yet to hand over absolute trust. I must earn it first.”

  “What compromise?” I asked. I hoped it was something I could live with, because I really, really liked Oses. The care he was taking with me in that moment was solidifying that regard. That he felt he had to earn anything from me was amazing.

  “You will promise to try your very best to share everything with me. You will place your greatest effort in this. If I feel you are holding back in any way, I will push you to get past it. Sometimes this might be unpleasant for us both. Yet we cannot share the kind of intimacies I crave ... and the ones I think you want as well ... without finding a way for you to be open with me.”

  Funny enough, it was this kind of vulnerability Oses advocated that scared me more than anything else. Could I really let myself be that unguarded? Being beaten bloody sounded a lot less daunting at that moment.

  “I can try,” I said. The hesitancy in my tone told us both I was unsure of success.

  Oses pursed his lips. “I suppose that will have to be enough to start with. If
I don’t see any real effort however we cannot do this, Shalia. Remember, I don’t have just your welfare on my hands.”

  I blinked. “What do you mean?”

  He raised his eyebrows. “You’re pregnant, pet. It’s true you aren’t showing yet and the research I’ve done on the matter tells me that in these early weeks, we may play as if you aren’t. It will become an issue later however.”

  Well, duh. Dumb Shalia. I’d been so overwhelmed by Oses, I’d forgotten my little hitchhiker.

  Oses wasn’t done. “You’ll have to report to your doctor about our sexual relationship. Before we get too far, we need to know what restrictions need to be in place and when.”

  I arched an eyebrow at him. I did not want to have such a conversation with Tep. “You mean, I have to discuss my having sex with you with the doctor?”